Revolving Doors

I tripped over a chain today, but I kept walking. I ran the wrong direction, and then I gave up. Today thus far has sucked immensely. My roommates thought it would be silly to keep me up till 3 when I had to wake up for class at 8. Unfortunately my alarm didn't work and is still not working. I almost got in a fight today, I was almost hoping for it. It's just been a bad day so I shouldn't feel bad about it because it will get better. I'm gonna share a poem that I wrote a year and a half ago. Now that I read it, it reflects on how I feel at this moment, even though I felt the same way in a completely different place at a different time when I wrote it. But since it is relevant I decided to share it. But be warned a year and a half ago I was not as good a writer so this poem is a little poor.

What Doesn't Revolve Around Me

Sometimes I run away from life,
for all the wrong reasons
and sometimes my moods change
as rapid as the seasons
These days pass me by so fast
I can't enjoy the time spent here
So I contemplate the thought
of what it's like to disappear
And I wonder is it really worth it
to breathe every breath today
When I could be in a place
where I'd do exactly what I say
I wouldn't run nor hide
from things hidden from my eyes
And just maybe I wouldn't be
the only one listening for my cries
When I cry, I fight myself
beating myself into submission
Then the tears stop when I black out
remaining in the same position
It seems I'm running but never moving
Hoping but never choosing
a better path of life other than
the one that leads to losing
Tell me exactly
what I might be doing wrong
So I can solve this puzzle
that I've been living for so long
I can't give up on a solution
it's something I need to solve
But I've been in the same place forever
As I watch My world revolve

Many people sometimes feel that the world revolves around them. This poem places some understanding on what it's like when things don't go exactly our way. The poem has a very negative tone because it doesn't really offer any hope of changing for the better, but rest assure with hope nothing will stay bad forever. I can't guarentee, but I feel it is better to live in false hope because at least you have something to hope for. That's all I feel like writing