Why you Walk

So how can I make this positive, I mean it still will be positive, its just right now I feel like garbage. It could be because I haven't eaten in 3 days, but I don't think that's it because I don't feel hungry. I'm disappointed because I feel weak, I look at myself and my body doesn't look defined or in shape, which I guess should not be a reason to be upset. However, I am kind of disappointed because I fear all the working out I've down since last April will end up being worthless after a week of not eating. I went to DURAG tonight which was pretty cool, I'll admit some things made me a little uncomfortable, but I still was able to dance and be filled with the Holy Spirit which helped because I was feeling down today, but now I'm still feeling down. I knew right after service that it was going to be a hard rest of the night which is why I'm going to sleep after I right this. It's probably just the devil trying to tear me down from my spiritual high which can easily be ignored because he is powerless. But other than my current state of sadness, I'd like to thank God tenfold for how he has revealed himself to me this past week. I pray that amazing things will happen for the rest of the week especially on tuesday. That is going to be the culmination of a lot of preparation to pour out God's love on this campus. So if you read this, just know that Tuesday, November 7th from Noon-1 on the Commons will be a concert/free food and it's going to be amazing. God will show up! Other than that I've been coming to a lot of realizations about different things that have been kind of disappointing to me, I feel bad for all my friends who don't know Christ on the level I know him because I know if they did, they'd realize any worldly thing in their life is meaningless. I'm so powerless when it comes to helping out my friends, and I know only through God and accepting that Jesus Christ died for their sins will they be saved. But amongst all that, other things still bother me that I'm not even going to mention because they don't matter to anyone else but me. I don't understand why people consume themselved with so much garbage that is so unfulfilling, why do people do drugs and get drunk when all it does is provide a temporary escape from problems and leads people to do stupid things because ultimately people are stupid. I'll admit I'm not smart, I've made my mistakes, but people insist on thinking different type of sinful behavior is cool: who can drink the most, who can get the best high, who can sleep with the most girls/guys, like honestly why are those things priorities for people. All those things lead to negative outcomes, for example getting hungover, throwing up, overdosing, dying, spreading STD's, getting someone pregnant, honestly why ruin your life, and people don't realize that God will not ruin your life, how many negative things come from believing in Christ. Don't get me wrong, I'm saying your life is going to be a pack of roses just by giving yourself over to Him, but his love will never stop so you choose to realize its there, it doesn't stop if you ignore it. The fact of the matter is that it is what is missing from those who search in the wrong places for what they think they need in their lives. All that the world has to offer shall pass away. "So I challenge all the skeptics and scoffers, just come and see what God has to offer!" Other than that I have nothing else to say, but I will share a poem I wrote on Tuesday.

Why you Walk

Show me the ground you walk on
and after you show me, tell me why you walk
Why don't you crawl?
It's okay to walk
but it's not okay to be ignorant towards
the one who allows you to walk
But rest assure that when the day comes
and you realize why you are walking
and what your purpose is
you won't find it necessary to walk
Walking will be child's play
because you will begin to run
And as you run
you will not grow tired
You will not suffer from exhaustion
You will not suffer from dehydration
Because you will be filled with the Holy spirit
But when you run, you will collapse
You will not collapse because you are weak
You will collapse because God's glory
will pour down on you
not only will you feel it
But you will see it
See it moving through miracles
moving in prayer
you will see the earth shake
and be transformed
You will see heart's break
and be reformed
God will purify
souls that have been torn
People will die
and then be reborn
All because humans will recognize
they are only human
and they will realize that
by calling upon God's name
lives will change
And as lives change
They will begin to walk,
then run, then collapse
They'll want all of God they can grasp
And when they rise back to their feet
they will walk again
But when they are asked
to show the ground that they walk on
they will point to a ground glittered in gold
because ground will no longer be common
it will become holy ground
and when they walk on this holy ground
they will proclaim why they walk
People will cry out "We walk in Faith!"
So now I plead with you
Show me why you walk