To Your life

Well I'm back at home and while I'm home I'm hoping for some amazing things to happen working through God. Tonight I went to the mall around 9:30 and as I was walking around I realized how much I don't like the mall. It could be because I was there alone, but in either case I don't like it, nor did I find anything worth buying or that I could afford. So I went to the book store at the mall and was looking at a possible Christian book that I may want to read during break, and unfortunately I could not find a single one that interested me. I saw a bunch of self help Christian books, and living your life with God, along with a whole bunch of books about things that argue against the bible, but nothing of real value. I mean its hard to find a book that can teach me something about walking with God and a relationship with him, other than the bible. The bible ultimately is your best bet, and then basically live your life as a book to try and be used for the glory of God. I was so frustrated picking up different books and being like okay this just doesn't seem to be very helpful. So I realize ultimately I have to learn the things necessary from God because his wisdom is so much more mighty than anyone's book on the shelf that I was looking at. While I was looking I also came across a book entitled "Letter to a Christian Nation" by Sam Harris, and realized this man was bitterly against anything having to do with Christianity. I felt it necessary to go to his website and write him a letter stating that America was the furthest thing from a Christian Nation because the Holy Spirity is lacking compared to so many other countries. A lot of people in America have the Christian front, but open them up and their cover is very misleading. I myself was the same way, and I'm still not even close to perfect by a longshot, but I do know I have a relationship with Jesus Christ, I know I believe in God, and I know I've felt the Holy Spirit come over me on many occasions, and I know for a fact many people in this country that if you say the words "Holy Spirit" too they will look at you dumbfounded. We are not in a Christian Nation, not by a longshot, but if we were I guarentee we would be living in a very beautiful place. I don't have much else to say now, but I will hopefully the next time I write, so I'll just end off with a poem I wrote a while ago:

Title to your Life

What we have here is a story of irony at it's best
One would have thought the lies you tell would be given a rest
Not too mention you're a broken record
anoter record broken
for the most times you've repeated yourself
I've heard it all before
from the girl next door
You knew that she broke my heart too
She shared the same half-truths as you
Your a spitting image
A spitting image of all those who spit on me
You glorify that in which deserves no glory
Sing your praise
in hopes of better days
Abandoned faith, parted ways
Enter into a better blaze
It's mind bending
how you bend your mind
to break off your ties
You broke away from the only thing
that lets your spirit rise
Perhaps, you have something new to live for?
You bleed for a cause
but what caused you to bleed
Did you do this to yourself?
Is this your cry for help?
So you tried to inscribe
your message in blood
The very stain of your shame
is washed away in a flood
Yes, patience were lost
Yes, boundaries were crossed
It seemed no progress was made
Yes, you are broken in mind
but your problems are defined
Now look to be saved

This poem is about how our relationships with God are rocky ones, how we constantly tell God we will do our best to not sin again yet at times we fall short, how we are broken records repeating ourselves at times. It's almost as if God's voice is speaking in the poem. When we sin it's as if we are spitting on him and crucifying him all over again and we get a taste of hell and how bad it is. It's easy to not act upon sin and ollow God yet at times we ignore him. When we should not even live for anything else but God and when you do your cries for help won't be ignored. God's forgiving and He knows we need his help so if you haven't received salvation, then receive it, if you want to fill yourself up and rededicate your life too him, don't waste your time with other things and do it. Live for him, serve him, love him with your whole heart before all else. God is love, and Jesus loves us forever and ever. Please do yourself a favor and find God, feel the Holy Spirit and walk as Jesus did. God Bless!