On Hold

Tonight was awesome at Durag, I got to worship God with my whole heart, it was explosive and I was like drunk in the Spirit, it was awesome. I also have kind of lost hope for my poetry, I realized tonight that my writing is nowhere near as good as others writing so I'm kind of going to just put it all on hold for a while, I'm not even going to attempt to write any poetry for a while in less God presses it on my heart to write something or maybe its not as bad as I have made it out to be, but in either case, I'm going to start going to the open mic poetry nights to try and get better at speaking out my poems, but I really don't have any purpose to write unless God will annoint more words, simply because I don't need another hobby. I don't need to write meaningless poetry unless God is going to use it to work for others, so I was really torn apart about whether when I write if it is a waste of time, or if it is a God given talent because if it is I want to use it to serve, if it isn't than I don't want to waste my time with it. Anyway, tonight was amazing regardless of how I feel about my poetry, but as I was reading my second poem Holy Spirit gave me a pat on the back so to speak so if nothing else I guess that was worth it. I'm going to bed now because I'm very tired. Peace and God's Love!