Just wait and See what God's about to do
For the first time in a long time, I actually feel upset about something. I say upset about something because I have no idea what it is. My spirit is grieving and I don't know why. I feel like things are going wrong, and I don't know what to do. I've been trying to spend time alone with God for revelation, but it feels unfocussed. Talk of a change in the spiritual environment has been discussed and to some extent I agree. I feel like battle lines have been drawn. I feel like we are on the verge of war. Whether it be spiritual or actual I do not know. I feel the battles in and around me just unsettling. Things have been just tearing me apart. I feel unconcentrated and my head, how it hurts. I feel like I've been crying out to God forever, and I'm just draining away. I feel my faith being attacked from every direction even when there is no real sign of attack. I feel broken. I don't know whats going on. There is so much to pray about and I feel hurt and dead and confused, and so badly need to hear from God. There is no time for anything anymore. God who are you and what are you doing?
posted by Jimmy at 3:37 PM
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James, this is your faith being tested, and you are my best friend, and it has been far too long since I have last seen you... I believe you are destined for more than me, I seek glory in battle and in my life's goals but it is you who is destined to be a true servant of God, in all my arrogance and all my competition with you I have come to realize this: As the great irony of our close friendship comes to contrast, you are the true cleric of God, I may only hope to be his warrior. I always felt bad about not going to see return of the king with you, but at least I turned down making out with a chick to watch it, haha. Anyway, I will never forget when we went to see The Two Towers together, it is a fond memory and I will never abondon it, come hell or high water, I hope no matter where you or I come to lay our souls, you will know that.
You have been threw a lot already but more death and termoil is definitely headed your way. If you need anything just call on me. And please James, you belive in God, but also remember to never give up on your fellow man.
i'm ready to read a new blog by you...thanks
jimmy, i'm still waiting to read some poems and such.
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