Driving

Because if I fell asleep I'd have to face the music of the morning, and there is no real telling what that will sound like, no telling where my dreams will take me, this is beginning to sound poetic but that's not the point, the point is to write, i lost my journal so I'm resulting to typing. I recognize my circumstance me being humbled, my positions threatened, but i also recognize my will is submitted, that I have no obligations to anyone or anything accept Christ and what he calls me too, and I'm the only one who knows what he fully calls me too, and I don't even know the full extent to which He calls me but he does, which is why in my circumstance I can trust him, which is why I've felt good since Friday morning. This 3 day stretch has been probably the most refreshing, clear God speaking to me weekend, or at least I feel he has been speaking and I'm no longer second guessing the Spirit in me, if someone else stands to correct me I'll stand before God and ask Him or repent. But I know that I'll be submissive to authority God has put me under not authority man has put me under. Even though I feel like I was tricked into agreeing to something, I don't mind it, I don't mind being a servant in matters I don't want to be. I also realize that Christ is my High priest that He offered himself for me, that without Him I am nothing and if I am spending time with Him and not living in sin there is no reason to second guess my Spirit even if it does seem like it's just emotion. I will take every thought captive, like today I thought about riding a tricycle through a drivethrough wearing a bicycle helmet during worship. I wish I didn't, I know I wanted to focus on God, but it didn't happen so i prayed about it. Church was good, God is better. I'm waiting for His Spirit and I'm wanting to be bold and to live as Christ everyday. Things are on the upswing, and I'm loving it.