Give me the Time Needed to do your Will

I've been super busy writing papers and doing tons of work as of late, but decided to take a break to glorfiy the things that God has done recently. Last week was pretty amazing as far as lighting a fire in my heart. I'm glad I was well received by God because my break wasn't exactly very spiritually fulfilling, but I'm too blame for that. On Thursday night, DURAG was amazing. It was a pretty intense word about not making enough time for God and it made me realize how during my break I had so much time and there was no excuse for not seeking out God more. I guess I was a little to excited about seeing people I hadn't seen in a while. Next break I need to make God my number 1 priority even though he is by all means, I just need to take more time to set aside for God especially when I am on my own. It's easy when there are tons of organizations and plugged in with a church and people who walk in the same faith to stay close to God, but I need to get better at being able to walk with God when I am all on my lonseome. He has already put on my heart, that my home is anywhere I go because I can feel at home so long as I feel God's presence with me. Friday night at prayer was by no means normal. The first night I went prayer a month ago, it was amazing intercession and crying out to God for so many people in my life and people that I have never met. Then the next two times I met were a bit rocky, but this past Friday was a Divine Appointment like no other. The Holy Spirit was alive and kicking in full force. Pastor Paul gave me a word that God is going to use me not only on JMU but everywhere I go, which really made me think even more about doing Missions Work because if God wants to use me wherever I go than I should go to some different places, but as for now God still wants to use me at JMU. He also said I will do it with a certain gentleness which to me was a little weird because sometimes I can be insensitive and when I talk to people I tend to deal with them in a serious matter when I am frustrated with them, but recently I can see how I am becoming more gentle with those around me. I'm still excited and waiting for God to work in the lives of my family and friends and I know he will whether it be through me or someone else. Friday was so amazing, people were slain in the Spirit, I may or may not have been, but I definitely felt his presence among me and I'm sure everyone else did as well, I don't know if I couldn't stand but I know at times I did not want to, I just wanted to lay before him, and once Pastor Paul gave me a word and prayed over me I fell down and just laid there for about 25 minutes. It was an amazing night. Saturday I must admit I was a little lackluster, I did not really do anything and did not devote enough time to seeking God, I pretty much ate and slept and did work, I read my bible for about 5 minutes. Sunday morning church was awesome. I love when service lasts 3 hours, it's awesome! Afterwards, me and Aaron ate and had good fellowship for while, but then I had to go home and get started on more papers, but I had some good worship cd's to listen to which was awesome and encouraged me as I wrote my paper, i also prepared for my presentation that I presented Monday morning. I was so overjoyed and thankful that God used me to present his word to my English class, I could have cried because I felt so blessed that I was able to do this, and God gave me words to say and present. He was so good throughout the whole process of my Research Paper because he just led me to all the information and scriptures I needed to make an affective presentation. He is so good. Thank you God! Today bible study was also awesome and we got to worship for a little while afterwards. That's all I have to write about, but I do have a poem about something I've been thinking about as far as my family and friends being saved goes.

You Can Say Things Will be Okay All You Want, but Things Will Only be Okay When I Know That You've Accepted Jesus in Your Hearts on This Day

The other day
I heard you say
that everything would be okay

but then this morning when I awoke
My chest was swollen, my heart, it broke
Before I could weap I smelled the smoke

I walked to the door, I felt the heat
Jumped out the window, but didn't land on my feet
Then I got up and ran towards the street

I heard a scream my back was turned
I looked around, my house, it burned

And then I knew what I had to do
I had to go back in and rescue you

I ran back to the house kicked in the door
Heard you scream on the second floor

The devils flames made it hell on earth
but my life is less than what you were worth

Ran up the steps and through the fire
It was hotter and hotter as I went higher and higher

When I finally made it to your room
came the time when I was to meet my doom

I grabbed your hand, led you down the stairs
Your life was saved, an answer to my prayers

As fate would have it the roof above me falls
My flesh is dead, for my Lord's voice, it calls

And even though I may be forever gone from this earth
life is meaningless in comparison to what salvations worth

My mission was to make sure that in heaven we would reunite
which is why I have no qualm with God taking me tonight

The meaning behind this poem is how I will come to feel when I know that my friends and family get right with God and acknowledge him as their savior and when they accept Jesus Christ dying for their sins and accpeting him into their hearts. This is how I will feel when I know they have been filled with the Holy Spirit, and realize that the Holy Spirit, Jesus Christ, God is our maker and lover, and if we seek a relationship with him everything in life is taken care of. I would spare my own life to know that my friends and family would be in Heaven and I would get to see them there, and I have to make sure I get there as well, but at times I feel I would be willing to sacrifice myself to go to hell if it meant the salvation of all of them. I mean I can say that on earth, but I'm sure it would not be worth it because God's promise to us when we meet him in Heaven is a joy that is entirely too unimaginable to develop words for. But if I lived in a perfect world where everyone was saved, it would be so beautiful, there would be no reason to complain, which is why I may one day have to die for the word of God to be shared amongst others, and I would be totally willing to do that. People need to feel the power and joy that comes with an altercation with the Holy Spirit, but when can only receie this amazing feeling if they seek him and once they seek him enough they can be filled with the Holy Spirit at any time so long as an individual shows a hunger for his presence. Until the day comes I can only imagine what it will be like when I see my closest friends and family dancing and praising God with their whole hearts, but when that day comes, I will be filled with this comfort that I no longer have anything to worry about. I felt the need to give that poem a long title because I know there is quite of work to be done before I will see God move in everyone's life that I desire to see him move in.